Sunday, May 9, 2010

Mothers Day.

Today is Mothers Day. The day I remind my mom how wonderful she is. The day we all make sure to say "Happy Mothers Day" to all the moms we know. I am a step mom. I am proud of that and this year I received the most beautiful hand made card from E. He brings much joy to my life every time I get to be with him.

But, today is Mothers Day. I am reminded that I am not a mother yet. Nor am I even pregnant. I know that I am a parent. But I want more. I want to be the one my child goes to for comfort after a bad dream. I want to be the one they run and kiss after a long day. I want to be the one to make sure there clothes are clean and lunch is packed and homework is done everyday. I want to be the one at the parent teacher meetings. I want to be the one who gets the new name...Mom.

I know it is way to soon to give up hope and that after only a year of trying we are finally in the right direction. I know that. But it does not change how I feel. I am hopeful for the future and I know that one day I will be a mom, weather it be from my womb or from my heart. But today is Mothers Day and today I am not Mom.

I am however, at work (till 6am) with my great co-workers and they make me smile. And to top it all of, my hubby picked up an overtime shift and he is here today too.

P.S. I thought I would show you a wonderful picture of my sweet Fur-Babies : )